Thursday, May 7, 2009

Sometimes you just have to let it out.....

On a more personal note..... I'm feeling very overwhelmed these days. I cant think straight, I've got a million things that I want to do and accomplish going through my head all day long. I haven't gotten a pay check in 2 weeks via waiting on Dr.'s to finish short term dissability forms to send in so that I can get approved and get paid. (Note....approval just happened yesterday), so now I'm waiting for a paycheck...when that will come I dont know. I've got Dr.s bills coming to me left and right. I've had 2 cat scans in the last 2 weeks, and a hyda scan. Only to find out that they couldn't find the answers as to why I have a mass growing on my liver. So now I have an MRI scheduled for tomorrow (which doesn't get fully covered through my insurance....BIG BILL), and I need my gallbladder removed, which is on hold until after the results of the MRI come in, and with being on steroids still that may not happen anytime soon. All I keep seeing are dollar signs adding up every week. I've got people telling me that my health is important and if I need these test to do them regardless. Just pay as much as you can. ..... Well....before all of this came along I was living paycheck to paycheck just trying to make ends meet....How am I suppose to do this? Family has helped me out and I am very grateful for that. But the bills just keep on coming. I feel I've had to sacrifice alot this of which was an awesome road trip to Springfield MO. that I had to cancel. Big dissapointment...but I'm very grateful to all the girls who took loads of pictures.

On a happier note I have taken some of this down time and motivated myself to finish a scrapbook that I've wanted to get done for a long time. Video in post below this. And I've been teaching myself how to knit. With the help of my neighbor. I've also learned how to do a few things to redecorate my blog which i'm soooo happy about.

Ok ..... So I got it off of my chest. I don't normally like to post such personal baggage but sometimes you just need to let it out.


Miss Wanderlust said...

you are definitely in my prayers Angela!! Also, I wanted to say that I looooove the new blog look <3 so cool!

Mallory Phillipy said...

my mother is on disability too and had similar troubles with paychecks and whatnot, i hope things get better for you.

in response to your comment on my blog the other day, the 52Q challenge is on emily falconbridge's blog:

its been super fun, i usually get behind and end up doing 5 at a time, but i think it's a really cool concept. most people just do small journaling tags, but i have too much to say haha. have fun with it :]

Anonymous said...

Hi Sis,
I wrote to you regarding this blog yesterday, but, as we discussed something happened to my response.
I just wanted to let you know that you are constantly in our prayers here in Florida and we hope that things get better very soon for you. I hope that the MRI answers many questions that you and all of us have been wondering about.
As far as the finances, I know a little about where you are coming from. It is very hard to see bills piling up and wondering where to turn? Just try not to get yourself upset over it...time will take care of you and so will God! I asked in my prayers recently, for God to put all your worries in his hands and guide you in the direction of a clear mind! So that you may concentrate on your health (and getting better) not to be more stressed by finances. I am sure that he heard my request...we continue to pray for you!
Just take it a day at a time.
Love you and miss you to pieces Sis. We will be home in a few months and I plan on spending as much time as possible with you. To catch up on Sister time. Love you dearly! xoxoxox....big hugs....

Ashley Brooke said...

i just wanted you to know that I think you are a fantastic person. I know we have never met in person but I feel like you are a friend. I am always so happy to share stories with you about kitties and to read your comments that you leave for me on my blog. Please know that I am only a blog away and I appreciate you!

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